| As you run to fake friends |
[11 Oct 2006|01:17pm] |
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Well I have work today, that's alright...I also get paid! Unfortunatley I have no transportation right now =/ Life has been getting better, thankfully. Her and I talk more now....it's kinda strange, but I love her so I could never turn my back....and always will. She feels the same, but it's hard.....different. So I've been talking to this girl Lauren, she's pretty fuckin cute, and chill...wonder how things will go. We might hang out after work, then again maybe not. So I shouldn't even be updating right now, I should be at Fire and Ice stuffing my face, but the chance to make a quick hundred came up...so obviously your going to take it. Oh well, now I sit at home for hours waititng to find a ride to take me to shaws. This sucks kinda, damn. Marc don't worry though, we will work something out hah.
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| welcome to my life |
[12 Sep 2006|12:09am] |
well here we are at midnight. today i did nothing. just hung around all day, ate a lot and smoek maaad weed. even though i was alone all day i didnt feel that bad. only one more day off thenw ork again....bleh. but i get paid too so thats cool. i was thinkin and for my next phone i think i want a sidekick. and i need a new car even a shitbox, just something to get around in. in due time i suppose. well i'm goin to smoke a bowl and llok up lyrics.
~Andy
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| once you knew a girl and you named her Lover |
[06 Sep 2006|12:07am] |
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well, i haven't written in this in forever. i saw someone on it and then i remembered i have one. haha so here i am. uhm yea A LOT has happened since my last update....but i obviously can't recap all of that....it would take me 4 months of typing haha. as of things right now for myself. they're okay i suppose, i'm single and hating it. i want a relationship and i've had the oppurtuinty to have one....but the ppl i just dont click with them at all, plus idk...i guess i'm not 100 percent ready yet. i have a job at shaws now...great...lol, but better than no job. gonna maybe get some buds, could be good profitable. uhm yea i really need a new car...my father is a scumbag, allie is a crackhead, nick is...well he's his regular bi-polar crazy self...and renee is havin a bit of a downtime which sucks. don't feel to bad, you'll experience worse as life goes on. idk, things for myself have been coming apart and its hard to cope with..i mean i do it cuz i have to. but honestly, sometimes i just don't know anymore, about anything. except that i need a car and to go to school! but it all costs money, and it's hard when no one helps you out and the ones bringin you down are the ones you live with. kinda fucked up situation, but i've been dealin with it forever now so i'm used to it....god i hate to see renee cry. but it's somethign she has to deal with, i'm here for you sweety. but yea i guess that'll be it for this entry, more to come.
~Andy
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[02 Jan 2006|07:26pm] |
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excuses, everyone has them.....
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[01 Nov 2005|09:15pm] |
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so yesterday was my birthday, i'm 19 now. it was okay nothing special. today was boring, i feel not in a good mood...i want some releif. but i won't get it.
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[16 Oct 2005|10:51am] |
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she doesn't care, your wasting your time
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[13 Oct 2005|11:19pm] |
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if only you knew, half as much as you pretend you do
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[05 Oct 2005|11:03pm] |
I woke up to a dissapointing letter, It says that you've found someone better. Well I guess I'm okay, I think i'm okay.
You say I've got growing up to do, well that's fine cuz now i'm done with you. Well i guess i'm okay, I think i'm okay.
He can't make you feel the way I can, He can have you though, now it's you I can't stand. If the skies parted a lighter shade, it might be a sign that things are okay, i guess for now i'll battle through the grey, try to find a reason to make it through the day.
Now you and him are on the rocks, you ask me to work it out...i tell you to run yourself off a cliff, you say without me you can't live.
So your a joker but this one's on you, I really meant it when i said that we're through.
Pull yourself together, your more disgusting than what's her face, i almost hate it when i'm not with you, then i remember the hell you put me through.
Now go fuck off save it for someone who hasn't heard it, your love for me has never been anything but a burden.
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[02 Oct 2005|02:05pm] |
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so yesterday i went to NH. I smoked weed. I went to botb and it sucked so i left. came home and smoked, ate, then went to beth's :) and hungout all night, woke up and had to go in a closet with matt, then back to bed and now i'm home.
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[28 Sep 2005|12:29pm] |
Show me how it ends, all the same i suppose but what did you expect when your dealing with the devil. He's born to win and your just dying to lose. So close your eyes and hope die, and you might just get your wish.....or worse.
If you had another chance would you dance the dance of regret or rise above and take the mistress by the hand and spin her like you were on top of the world...just once i'd like to not live a lie. Then again I wouldn't call this living, but i'm not quite dead, what a dilemma, to be in between.
So is this what you wanted, a black eye and a gap in your heart, oh wait you've got no soul, and that's too bad cuz i don't hang with squares. If you only knew the things we don't say. Poor lonley child, lost in the concrete jungle, the only guidance you have is in circles on the street lights.
Give it one more chance, and try to deceive yourself. You know that your not fooling him, so good luck with yourself. I wish you the worst cuz you've given up on the best...no regrets is all she cried.
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| B I 1 7 |
[22 Sep 2005|02:26pm] |
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BETH HAPPY 17TH BIRTHDAY, I LOVE YOU SOOO MUCH! YOU ARE MY FAVORITE PERSON. I HOPE YOU GET EVERYTHING THAT YOU WANTED AND MUCH MUCH MORE. I'LL SEE YOU LATER ON PROBABLY. YOUR AMAZING AND I LOVE YOU. ENJOY YOUR SPECIAL DAY!!!
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| Talk about a bad day. |
[21 Sep 2005|12:36pm] |
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So today Jen, Ari, Brian, and I all got suspended for smoking and being stoned at school. Not too bad considering what could've happened.
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[12 Sep 2005|04:19pm] |
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okay it wasn't a date i swear!!! but it don't matter now cuz i'm doing it with you...feel better???? :) I love you
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| Which one do you fall into? |
[11 Sep 2005|02:40pm] |
Forms of love
Combinations of intimacy, passion, and commitment Liking or Friendship intimacy
Infatuation or Limerence passion
Empty love commitment
Romantic love intimacy passion
Companionate love intimacy commitment
Fatuous love (Whirlwind romance) passion commitment
Consummate love intimacy passion commitment
The relative emphasis of each component changes over time as an adult romantic relationship develops.
Liking includes only one of the love components - intimacy. In this case, liking is not used in a trivial sense. Sternberg says that this intimate liking characterizes true friendships, in which a person feels a bondedness, a warmth, and a closeness with another but not intense passion or long-term commitment.
Infatuated love consists solely of passion and is often what is felt as "love at first sight." But without the intimacy and the commitment components of love, infatuated love may disappear suddenly.
Empty love consists of the commitment component without intimacy or passion. Sometimes, a stronger love deteriorates into empty love, in which the commitment remains, but the intimacy and passion have died. In cultures in which arranged marriages are common, relationships often begin as empty love.
Romantic love is a combination of intimacy and passion. Romantic lovers are bonded emotionally (as in liking) and physically through passionate arousal.
Companionate love consists of intimacy and commitment. This type of love is often found in marriages in which the passion has gone out of the relationship, but a deep affection and commitment remain.
Fatuous love has the passion and the commitment components but not the intimacy component. This type of love can be exemplified by a whirlwind courtship and marriage in which a commitment is motivated largely by passion, without the stabilizing influence of intimacy.
Consummate love is the only type of love that includes all three components--intimacy, passion and commitment. Consummate love is the most complete form of love, and it represents the ideal love relationship for which many people strive but which apparently few achieve. Sternberg cautions that maintaining a consummate love may be even harder than achieving it. He stresses the importance of translating the components of love into action. "Without expression," he warns, "even the greatest of loves can die"
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[10 Sep 2005|06:28pm] |
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You did it again......thanks.
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| Magic Mushrooms on The wall, punch it hard make them falll. AHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!!!!! |
[07 Sep 2005|04:04pm] |
I'm just gonna put a quick update. So yesterday I got shrooms and went to warwick with Dan, Chris, Matt, and this kid Christian and we tripped balls in the kid's room, while he was playing guitar and shit. It was amazing! Then we walked to Shell and we got stopped by the cops....talk about scary! But we somehow made it out of there. Went to Shell then back to Christians, idk man.....i can't even describe the feelings i felt. It was cool shit man...I missed school cuz of it though, but w.e I dont give a shit.
~Andy
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[03 Sep 2005|05:59pm] |
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Well I wish you wouldn't get soo mad
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